Mentally exhausted from prancing around for days. I need my sleep back, I cannot understand why do people need lesser sleep. First, it isnt healthy and WE HUMANS are made to sleep/rest. What are eyelids for?
I cant quite spend and therefore declare myself to stay at home or indulge in expenditure-free activities. I have to go overseas, again. And as much as i want to go with them, its just the inherent idea in me to not want to spend from my parents' and I am the one enjoying myself. It dont quite get me, and its for myself of course. GRR, sometimes i wished i have less of a conscience. OK but, if i am the parenting one, i dont mind spending on my kids. THASK, its tough nut.
Morning was good, driving on the ECP while the sun is rising is tranquil. With denise, the safe driver and very precious friend. It really made me embrace adulthood more. There are just so much satisfaction in the little things that we do now. Rather than being the young angsty teen that laments about all that didn't happen. Sent Jaslyn off to mission trip, declined Horrible AIRPORT coffeebean breakfast though.
Slept for some time before going to JIEN"S BIG DAY, that was planned small and everyday-like. FREEZING WHILE hiding from jien but i realised i wasnt supposed to hide! Lunch/Tea at Tea Cosy bt eclectic attic. I think its funny how karine likes that level of her anatomy. Making checklist was new, never had such a realistic checklist. I often write checklist when i was young; TOP SCHOOL, BEAT WHOEVER IN MATH etc.
I don't like antique very much I realised. I like wood, zen, white wash, linen, teak furnitures.
Well, to me, I wouldnt mind that. NOT HINTING, jien. AND Captain Amerika. I want to be outdoor though. I just need board games, laughter and savoury food for birthday. No cream cakes, and i actually grew out of cakes. HAHAHAHA OK WHY DOES THAT SOUND SO FUNNY. Why did all of us degenerate to elusiveness. I think its a general vibe dwelling in our adulthood. Hope it doesn't really get to us, prematurely. WE STILL HAVE TO PARTY! LIKE LAUGH AND HAVE FUN. Besides musing off minor-keyed songs and depression made into films.
So before I myself turned twenty, i am getting rid of my excess cynicism that is mixed up with the spirit of discernment. Be painfully honest, and stop escaping from real, STOP.
Lord can you hear me now.